Ou+Klass Of C

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2008-11-18T19:06:00.002+08:00

Lies by Big Bang

hello?
hello?

yeah... love is pain
dedicated to all my broken-hearted people
one's old a flame, just scream my name
and im so sick of love songs
yeah, i hate them love songs
momento of ours..
lie!

a late night and rain falling down
i bring you back from my memories
i promised myself i will be fine without you
but i cant help it
i take in liquors that i cant even hold
trying to fell my empty heart
a day without you is too long
i pray that i may please forget you (that's a lie)

without you, happiness cannot be found in me
i cant even shed any tears
i dont want to live anymore

yeah, this is bullshit, its pissing me off
im going crazy in thoughts of you
i want to see you, but im being told that i cant
that its all over (i'll be right there)

Chorus
im so sorry but i love you, its all a lie
i didnt know, but i know that i need you
im so sorry but i love you, out of anger
i pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing
im so sorry but i love you, its all a lie
im so sorry (im so sorry) but i love you (i love you more and more)
im so sorry but i love you, will you leave
and forget me slowly, so i can be in pain

i dedicated my all into this song for you
(other people dont know)
by myself, without anyone knowing
(yeah, those words i said were lies)
a loner left behind all alone
and me lost in the midst of it all
in my pocket is the breakup letter that's wrinkled
and folded up in my pocket, hey
(and my habit of calling for you and wondering where you are)
im gonna change, i'll laugh everything off from now on

Chorus

oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, i hope this is all a dream
oh, oh, oh ,oh, oh, because i only add up to this much
drope that, babe

i still cant forget you
no, i dont think i ever will, even 'til the day i die, yeah
did the scars i gave you heal
im sorry becaus i never got to do anything for you

Chorus

bye bye.

that the lyrics for the new song on my blog le. intro by my miss Eunice! pretty nice bah. hmm abt a girl who want her love to forget her due to her terminal illness so she fake that she is cheating on him with a friend of her love. so the love sang this song.

nice nice huh. wohoo now i on leave until sunday b4 course start on monday. sianz no1 to go overseas with =( so free haha. I want fun outings =P

last week eventful sat!

2008-11-18T18:57:00.003+08:00

haha shiok that day. ate 15 meatballs + the pasta at ikea. shop for stuff.
then later ate gel'are waffle 3 scoop for dinner later on.

after that its time for madagascar 2! funny shit! hail King Julian!

LOl

sat and sun.

2008-10-27T15:09:00.004+08:00

hmm sat, use comp, at nite go newton eat b4 watching coffin at causeway at 11.15.

newton there alot ppl sia, but the food ok only.
haha treat my good friends since pri school. ate stingray, lala, fried youtiao and giant prawns $8 per 100grams! Nearly ordered chilli crab, abalone and sharkfin as well. i should not say how much it cost! =D

Coffin is a pretty stupid movie. its not scary at all. they try to breathe in alittle romance in the show. but it totally screw up the movie. i felt scammed! haha and something inside is true. the wheel of life is spinning. we should not disrupt it. so yah need to destroy all bad demons.

then sun use comp, at evening go a restaurant at psa building to eat for my mum birthday. abalone, sharkfin, chilli crab, lobster, fish maw, duck, chicken, beef, goose, fish and more lol. yum yum full! lucky sat nber eat crab abalone or sharkfin.
after dat go home dota till late night. super unlucky sia, whatever i played, i got countered and USED.

ok todae monday, oso play comp whole day. hmm actually later gonna go eat new york new york. my friend a vip so we can just walk in without queuing! cool rite? lol then later go play poker at ron house. b4 i book in on tue =( but now plans changes, all the players want to play earlier. sad no mre new york ='( think i oso dun feel like playing poker le. today i should rest at home. and eat my dinner alone? what the hell.

As long you are happy, nothing else matters. Smile! yes plz smile!

BLOCK LEAVE

2008-10-25T12:29:00.003+08:00

o.O i realised i got a block leave. wow my friend so fast already cfm going hongkong with his gf and book the tix le.

ahhhh i want to go oversea too ,from 15-23 ,anywhere will be fine, i m stashed with enulf to backpack around bah. any1 on bo?

ARISON THIHA ANGYUN WEILIANG ?

go aus sand boarding and wind surfing and scuba diving?

haha yup any1 got cash, free, call me!

thinking of going oversea sure crack me up. =D

Posted out.

2008-10-21T14:41:00.002+08:00

Oh no. I got posted out already.

To stagmont camp at CCK behind cck sec and teck whye pri and beside pjc!

To T SIG INST as signal specialist/operator.

Lol so i will be manning signal set and stuff next time!

Dunnoe whether its good or bad. Todae is an off day for me and i have no 1.

tml time to move in my new camp at 8am =(

Dunnoe y, handling my anger/sadness is much harder to me now.

misses

leave.

2008-10-18T16:05:00.002+08:00

lol fri went out to ps with the OOC, eat sakae sushi buffet, then play monster hunter at coffee bean all the way until night.

after that on the way to take mrt home, a malay shemale approach and ask me whether I am a chinese. I reply yes, and he say I m cute and he like me, and i just faster walk away, and he gave me a flying kiss >.<

gross or?

after that proceed to ronald house to donate money for poker, haha $60 =D
reach home around 7am, bath and slept until 4pm. now back to devil slaying tonight.

army is fucked up.

2008-10-16T12:26:00.002+08:00

wed do 24 hours duty, now thurs to sun free wohoo!

but todae dam fucked up, finish duty then write book-out book and go home le, reached the door at 8, and received a phone call to go back by 10am, an order by RSM.

dam reached le then tell us off, said that we never let them know before going off.

duh last time ask us to go off faster, now say must wait for them and tell them before going...

aww i want to talk back and shoot them back but nia should stop since they already let us go off.

ok now another problem, I m too free! Time to watch the notebook and leap years =D
Pretty sweet movie, try watching too!

love in the ice

2008-10-12T22:07:00.001+08:00

TRANSLATION:

Those freezing hands aren't your fault
They carry scars from long before
Afraid to love someone,
You turn your back on the other side of the words...

Like ice, the embraced heart slowly starts to thaw

* For anyone to be loved by someone,
Makes life in this world shine
If it was me, I’d make your heart warm once more
With eternal tenderness

Even if fate’s games hurt the heart...
On the other side of the tears,
A single ray of light will swoop down into the darkness
We know that this is so

As strong as the suffering, we can feel people’s warmth

Everyone is searching for a place
That can take away the sorrow and loneliness
So… for you, that place is here
Don’t be afraid, don’t hesitate anymore, because I’ll protect you

To the point of being painful (my heart)
This love is beautiful (don’t be afraid)
Even if just momentarily (let you know my love)
This time is beautiful (you know… let you know my love)

* Repeat

Yup that the lyrics of the new song on my blog. pretty sweet and touching. alrite time to book in and spend my free time!

dab rekop

2008-10-12T08:12:00.003+08:00

sat watch connected.

pretty funny show becoz it is so unbelievable how much the luck the male lead have...
interesting plot.

and after that went to play poker until 7am.

i have my mind on too many things. carelessly lose 1 big pot game of $50+ early which i should not if i double checked my cards.

once my big stack gone, hard to play sia. then in the end overall i lose $70+ but nvm, the money i earned from them last time can cover the loses.

pretty sad and low. cant believe a guy can get so much luck after going thailand with his girlfriend. do god of luck really exist?

hiass money is still just a small factor of my life. i m glad that amount of money can buy me such thrill.

one mre thing. i miss you. =D

great night out!

2008-10-05T13:23:00.002+08:00

yes it was a great night out!

watched painted skin, ate sushi.

painted skin - sweet love story. yup guess i will be the same to my wife.

but so sad, need to go back early.

nvm it just feel super great to meet some1 you miss for so long even for such a short time.

haha hope there are mre to come anyway. =D

gambling streak

2008-10-01T16:10:00.002+08:00

lol shiok man, ytd went gambling at night to morning at a friend house.

First time play with like 10 or mre poker players.

long time since i touch the card le too.

haha won 227 bucks at texas hold'em. 0.1/0.2 no limit
no 1 have ever brought me down yet at gambling since young unless its my first try at the game. =D

hope that will continue when I go professional at the new coming casino.

I m so high now =X

but sianz now 3+ wake up, hope later got ppl ask me go out.

happy and sad = emo

2008-09-26T21:51:00.003+08:00

i dunnoe whether to be happy or sad

1. I ooc and currently attached to guardroom.
2. I maybe going to an operation soon and no 1 cares.
3. i work 24hour(4 shifts of 2hrs duty, 4hrs rest) one day, a day off the next day, then 8-6 and the cycle carry on. and sat, sun off too.
4. I been seperated from my usual friends
5. Made new friends
6. lots of time on hand but no 1 to spend with.
7. watching movie alone is common again.
8. bought myself spore to entertain myself.

aww i want to go out have some fun =(

bad news.

2008-09-20T19:28:00.002+08:00

so after some specialist checking my knees, they sending me for a mri scan suspecting its a meniscus tear which will require a operation.

dam i m screwed becoz of ns which cause me this, no doubt i will ask for compensation.

wah i m so getting Spore next bookout! its a game that i dreamt of.

Fucking NS destroys everything.

I HAVE HAD ENUFF!!

2008-09-14T20:01:00.002+08:00

aww I cant take it anymore.

NS ruin everything I had planned to do and also a main part of my life.

my migraine is getting worse and even more pain after 2 weeks. I gotta push my brain specialist appointment forward. when i m awake = pain, exposed to sound and light = extremely pain

life is boring. I want to live in my world of warcraft or monster hunter.

I want to be and have a lover.

Missing all my loves.

depressed and crying every now and then.

I need some help to unleash all my pain.

Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold

2008-08-30T10:30:00.001+08:00

Nowadays I will just use songs which represent my emotions to blog liao. Since cant blog much about army stuff coz just sign a thing abt it.

Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
And where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

BSLC -> ASLC

2008-08-15T20:24:00.002+08:00

Alrite I didnt get to cross over because I didnt get gold and pass my SOC. =( Oh well its alrite and I got send to advance section leader course.

Wohoo 13 weeks of training, last 3 weeks will be in Taiwan during winter!

Ouch hope I get into guards at the end of aslc =D

Ready to Strike!

Haha I wanna bring you out!

lonely

2008-08-10T15:01:00.002+08:00

Lolx So long since I blog. too lazy le. too busy progressing.

wohoo my sispec course is ending. aww the first 3 person chosen for cross over have been made known, now left 3 slots, that is really scary.

if chosing is done by physical skills, I will fail. =(

Alrite now i m feeling weird, scare, disappointed. These feelings are so scary. I m feeling mre and mre distant from ..

Am I the only one that naive? I just wanna spend the rest of my life with ..

Hiass really no mood for anything.

ifc coming!

2008-04-20T12:07:00.003+08:00

aww. Field Camp is coming for me sia from 25-30 April, so mean I can only book out next next thursday on 1st of may I think.

Wohoo sound fun to be in the jungle eating rations.

Haha hope can go the brunei 10 days survival camp in jungle next time which will be mre fun since you will be left alone.

bmtc rather easy and time pass rather fast. so those who haven enter ns no need scare.

Come on! 20 chin up and 10 min run for me next ippt please!

ciaox every1 takkaire.

3rd book out!

2008-04-06T17:49:00.003+08:00

Haha booked out from tekong at around 3+, reached home at around 5 (thank to the hitched ride of my platoon mate nicholas)

Haha I faster get changed to meet yiling at 6.30. Haha actually wanted to go buy contact lens with her then go makan then send her home before going out again with my mates to the dancefloor at MOS! but too bad, my parents dun allow me to go club becoz next morning need shaomu and I have a very bad cough which lasted around 2 weeks already. So I changed my bottom to 3 quart pants.

Haha reach cck mrt on time but blur yiling left her wallet at home lolx! so in the end 7 then we start to decide which branch to go to shop for our contact lens. after checking its only open mon-sat 9am-5pm! lolx so we have to change plan le.

in the end we went farrer park to go mustafa shopping centre to shop for gift for her sister's friends in US. haha after some time we managed to found the place. lolx the place feel out of Singapore, its the same feeling when I backpack. haha lots of indian ppl around. Lolx after getting the stuff she need, we settled at a indian foodstall to have our dinner. haha ordered 3 set meals., prata, chicken dosai and idiappam set meal.

after the meal its a long way home and i bid her goodbye at cck station. haha needless to say another nice day =X. Lolx she gave me a big scare but I am glad to know everything is normal and alright.

Then today went to shaomu, haha ate the offerings afterward which include coffee charsiew, duck, pork, siewmai and more. then went to uncle house. haha the parrot funny, keep turning round and round and he can hang upside down like bat. then 4+ take taxi home, bathed, changed. now after finishing this entry I am going out to have my dinner le b4 going to pasir ris to book in back at ferry.

adios, all takkaire!

dam time is running out, actually still have mre things to blog abt de but you guys should wait till next book out bah.

HavoHej

NS book out!

2008-03-21T00:41:00.003+08:00

Wohoo first book out. Singapore feel warmer and the air is sucky though. =X

Haha love my section, balanced mates of phd,poly,jc and privates peeps. Haha lots of funny things happen everyday =D Can't stop being happy.

Heex kinda of enjoy NS life, building up the body.

Dam POP will seperate us. Hope it will come slower.

Lolx sound ironic but yah, I enjoy companionship all day long. too lonely for a long time.

alrite takkaire all again.

Booking in tml at 8.30pm liao
Huggies and kisses

my secret left untold...

2008-03-09T17:49:00.002+08:00

For my history? Was it a line extending forward? Or rather a circle, going round and round?

If fate is a wheel, we are the cogs that drive it.
We have no choice but to believe that this wheel is flawless and forge on ahead.
The power of the individual cogs and their destinations and the blade that is bought upon them.

People hate those who are different from themselves.

But I still protect them becasue I want to.
I'll place my soul on the line!

People sought the power to change their fate.
I sought the turn of fate

No, the wheels is not just revolving. Each time it's touched by the light of the sun and moon.
The world is always changing into something new.
If there is one thing that does not change. It is my lack of power

I can see spirit. I am touched by them. I can speak with them.
Sometimes they just disapeear like that. I'm not sure why.
Sometime all that remains is a blood stain that only I can see, along with a vague feeling resembling pain.
No matter how strong I become, I cannot protect them.

When I think of this, my heart is like a blade.

If you attained too much power, you could only be controlled by it.
And in the end, maybe your only option was to destroy yourself.

Its revolving. Revolving...

If fate is a wheel, then we are the sand that is crushed between the cogs.
We are helpless.
All we want is power.

Even if we can't protect others by extending our hands, we desire a blade for those hands to grasp.
The power to crush one's fate must look like a blade swinging down.
Is my power the power to crush fate?
Or will I be swallowed up by this power?

There's no point in dwelling on this.
This power is to protect others. That's just fine.

Does history repeat like a never ending circle or is it a line extendingg forward?
And if it is a circle, hould we break free or resign ourselves to our fate?

Revolving, huh?

Reminded of my strong and special roots by my father. Guess I have to do what a man got to do.

the sky just fall down on me!

2008-03-08T13:17:00.002+08:00

boom! heavy sia!

dam my a level result came out and it suck!

Gp s
Econ s
Math d
Physics e
Chem s

hilarious result! haha no more a miracle boy like in the past!
wah I m in the failure percentage! LOLX.

Thx to those who sayang me!

Nevermind Singapore education system is channeled for the elites anyway.
People even opt to go private with straights A for a education that suit the west more.

Oh well, let see what will become my future career, business analytical or business psychology? 1st class Chef? professional poker player?

oh well I will just retake alevel again next year as private first.

may my noble star guide me. follow the path of stars to my destined future.

Do what thou will, but harm none.

Lolx A level students don't want go out 1 sia. Nevermind KBOX and/or Zouk or Eve for today with my good friends!

alrite peace out! for every1 out there!

Education is a small componenet of sucess! Fret not, There will always be a way out!

cheers!

Back!

2008-02-21T00:39:00.002+08:00

Boo! I m back with a brand new rap?

Haha alot things have happened =D

Fun I must said!

I must go backpacking around the world someday!

Bad news though, I will be trapped in forced conscription soon! March 13 =(

X'Mas

2007-12-28T17:11:00.000+08:00

Heex some picture from the fish and co. birthday outing. noticed the fish and co. board? got it out from the place myself =D

Oh well. I got sort of the best X'Mas. I received my first X'Mas card from a friend I knew since primary school. Pretty Touched =D awww

Haha then watched "I m Legend too." Well its not exciting as other zombie flick coz I do not see any human die. But its kinda of showing us the message that human will be the 1 in the end causing our own race to be wiped out. Haha I can't wait for such a day so that I can become a Hero and Legend. =D

And wohoo went expo for the X'mas drama, Nice world class performance. And after that everyone light up the candle and spread the light, the whole hall is filled with at least 20k flicking light. It was such a wonderful sight. The birth of Christ is the main reason of X'mas =D

Haha one day I went for my training at work, knew a girl in my group. She was 17 but veri touchy. >.< I was kinda of scare of her lolx. Now I m juggling 3 jobs on my way to greatness. Mercedes M-Class here I come.

Ytd night went to Ministry of Sound to celebrate my friend 18th Birthday. Lolx the initial group of 8 become 6 but we just go ahead with it. I spend 20 bucks for entry, and 25 bucks for a jug. Haha everyone dance alot that day. after our first drink, we danced from 12 to 3am then we bought 2 jug of vodka redbull, rest abit on our table and chair on the corner. And back to dancing again! lolx oh well nothing much happen, just freaking lots of dancing. Lolx even now my leg is aching as if I just came back from a gym workout or swimming. =D

Wohoo tml CAPL, Entity please win =D

SunShine Empire

2007-12-19T02:16:00.000+08:00

Wohoo went to my first meeting, in formal wear and tie, like prom but minus the blazer.

haha 8pm start. Dunnoe wat time end but quite late, o.O we got a countdown chalet at downtown east + bbq!. and we are gonna expand overseas since the market are there.

lolx got movie outing too. haha interesting lessons i learned todae. I will fight like no other people! victory will be mine.

*The truth is that many people set rules to keep from making decisions.*

best in RP

2007-12-19T02:03:00.000+08:00

lolx monday went with my team to RP for their match. WOhooo its was a rp only competition so I cannot join, so four of entity + 1 person from other outside team make a team call DunnoeWhyWeJoin. Lolx first 2 match is boring, they opponent is worse then pub. the score is 40+ to opponent kills of single digit. lolx

Then third match more interesting, the opponent got mag, which is quite imbal, and clear our team once, then my teammate split out to push, 3 different lane to counter mag ult. And clinch the victory.

Final round against team rp! It was a great match, but lucky we got a great mag and managed to keep clearing team to win, the kills of both side is similar. Wohoo so each of the teammate receive 40 buck + (Orange Box)team fortress 2.

Wohoo I m in the picture taken as a team manager. I love you guys, I will train even harder now and be the head and not the tail!

*Love is the flower you've got to let grow.*

great friday

2007-12-16T20:00:00.000+08:00

Wohoo kinda of too packed to post. I m back loxl. Hmm last week friday is interesting and fun.

afternoon I went to rp for the open house, i love the place there, its so nice. their library is so good! Lolx i waited 1.5 hours for my friend since their lessons haven end, in the end I went up his class to play his laptop since there is only CS competition at that time in the openhouse. Dota competition (GXL) will be on sat and sun. aww after playing awhile, I have to say bye bye coz its time to meet ryan for his birthday party.

Nevertheless I was late =X hhaha stupid stopping train keep stopping between station. Wohoo meet them in fish n Co. in doby god!. didnt expect miawhui and huda there too lolx. chat+eat+take photo. Lolx that day there is 8 other ppl celebrating birthday there too. Oh yah the live band (male singer) there sing rihanna his version, still not bad lolx. and then I got ryan birthday present from there! Lolx in the end we have to sign on it then gave it to him lolx. aiyah Should post up the picture next time.

aww then the girls keep questioning me abt it, make me want to cry lolx but who cares. I m not telling!

then later at night we watch The Warlords! its like the next best movie i watched after Prestige! Incredible plot! Really show us what is brotherhood and the feelings of different people. its a MUST WATCH! the grand cathay theatre is really nice too

After the movie, we walk around hunting for bus stop with night rider bus back to our place since its a midnite movie at cathay, lolx we walk all around until cityhall until we found nr3!, then str8 home lolx.

packed

2007-12-13T03:32:00.000+08:00

finally my days are getting packed!

thurs lesson bes "b" for my job
friday dinner out with f4!
sat most probably movie with entity
sun job grouping? + outing possible

next wed then i may become assist manager o.O

Wohoo and next week most of my poly friend holiday! time to rock and roll! earn, play sleep.

My time is coming.

job job job job

2007-12-11T15:03:00.000+08:00

Wohoo I updated my blog with 2 sexy song finally =D

Been so busy painting the house and rushing through my One Piece anime.

Haha okie gtg, hope I get the job and make my way to greatness to become the rich and famous =D

Something funny for you guys.

They're Taking The Hobbits To Isengard

*Counsel woven into the fabric of real life is wisdom.*

heaven

2007-12-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

todae went gym + swim then spa.

haha I went alone but God love me, he send me a companion "JiaWei" in the gym. if you guys do not know, he is the sissy kind. But I m nice, I teach him + did not laugh at him =X o.O chatted with him and it turn out that pes c is the deskjob in ns, and he is inside coz he admit to being gay.
So a deskjob guy is training up in the gym? and i guess it is to attract other "female gay"

the weather do not look good at first, it was raining so I tot i have to cancel my swimming.
But wohoo it stop rainning at around 5. My initial plan is 3-5 gym 5-9 swimming + spa so God make it fix in nicely.

so byebye jiawei! good luck with ur future! and off I went to swim! changed into my triangular swimming trunk! put on my cool degree goggles! and I saw "WeiMing" in the changing room! another GodSend companion. WeiMing is supposed to be a very hardworking nerd that is so legend last time in secondary school. he buy assesment book for himself and just keep doing, even his mum have to resort to throwing away his assesment book to make him eat or take a break! but now he have changed to focus on physical side and is more well built then me =( oh well.

so off we went to swim, i corrected his freestyle since it was self taught by himself. after that we just keep swimming. I do froggy style mostly coz my legs is tired from the running earlier already and cant do freestyle nicely. wohoo and i swim in the wave! it required mre strength but I can feel my body getting fitter with the pain ache i feel =D

Swim and swim then he went off, and i went to spa. feel so shiok with the relaxing feeling and ache at the same time. wohoo after dat went to eat a plate of rice with 4 sides then bought home a spring chicken to eat.

overall i feel satisfied with my activities as it set my mind away. fate have bring me two weirdos as companion and stop the rain for me as well. But I must admit I m moody inside the gym when the rain started with lots of thunder coupled with the songs that kept me thinking.

Wohoo I m happy though in the end.

wheee f4/brothersofarms is going to meet up a couple of time soon!

*People think love is an emotion. Love is good sense.*

lovestruck!

2007-12-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

lolx this few days I m happy. spent alot of time doing special things. Yah all my friends, you can count on me. Believe me =D

haha then today I felt something after some sms-es and I just have to do it.

At first it was a "yess" at 5th Dec 2007 8.36.31pm.

But when Terence jump for joy, he got stuck!
I got the special feelings! So Happy.

Then after some time, -_- turn up there was some misunderstanding. it was a "yess" to another question. I felt stupidified! So funny man, I cant cry or laugh.

Lolx but its alright, we will be together as best friends. And hopefully the feelings for each other will change for the better in the future.

* You cannot get ahead while you are getting even.*

Meaningful huh? I will go the miles to do things to make people happy and I do not care whether you do the same. Sacrifices of time and effort is the price I only paid for your happiness.

SGGA....

2007-12-02T11:40:00.000+08:00

Singapore Gamers' Association (SGGA) have super lousy managment. The comply which is supposed to start at 9pm was dragged till like 2am-_- due to the faulty + lousy Samsung computers. So dam pissed. In the end we end up at a lan shop for the competitions.

Thx for the luck from you!
We won the first round by walkover since the enemy team 8|w chickened out and surrendered.

So we waited until 4am for the next round, it turns up that we are up against gG.Alpha which the team already won in gxl on 2pm on the same day earlier on. So Miah played instead of me since I didnt play in the match earlier on. Sadly to say We lost badly, guess everyone of them are too sleepy to play really not the usual gameplay + teamplay. Another time I guess, capl is coming!

Haha I fell asleep around that time till 8am. then I have to walk back to the museum due to 1 freaky incident. On the second floor there are those lockers which are free. You just have to enter a pin and press the lock button, then it will lock for you, after that you have to press back the same pin to open it. at first I was playing with it like 5 times making sure its correct. after that I put in my bag and my friend keyboard in and locked it. Omfg but we cant open it! lolx lucky me, they provided keyboard + mouse in the end.
Then the security guard asked me to wait till 9.30 till the managment staff come. So have to wait so long before I can get my bag out.

My team dun sad okie, lets work some magic, practise make perfect. our trust on each other is already there.
Aza Aza Jiayou!

* When love is at its best, one loves so much that he cannot forget.*

aftermath

2007-12-01T14:48:00.000+08:00

lolx once I m back from chalet(29 nov), I started training again, non stop until 7. then went out catch 30 days of night. quite a average movie which use sound to scare people. haha after that went to eat (lunch+dinner+supper) b4 going back to training to 3+am. after that reach home and orh orh le!
next day(30 nov) woke up, train whole day again till 5am(1 dec), eating my (breakfast+lunch+dinner) at only 1am. then back to sleep.

haha wat a unhealthy lifestyles but cant help it. competitions are drawing near. 1st dec 9pm +2nd dec 9pm onwards.

Teams @ the compy at the national museum =D I m in entity!

- LoNg
- XtC.DotA
- fAzeTheMusic
- Entity
- 8|w
- GG[U].DsD
- NcT
- gG.Alpha

Getting excited watching replays! Haha free to jiayou us, contact me.

*Less is more.*

Chalet!

2007-11-30T16:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm Day 1 at chalet, did nothing much. The boys helped with the bbq pit. It was quite hard working with the black gold charcoal which is round at the beginning. But after that it was easy =D
Lolx the white dust keep piling up and we can blow it to make them fly
Lolx the charcoal is just like michael jackson. It turn from black to white then red hot (surgery), end product is "rubbishy"uneven parts just like his nose.

And Omg this whole post abt chalet will be dull without pictures. my phone is spoilt when i sat on it during the bbqing. What luck =( i want a new sony arison phone!

Lolx after that went back cook + eat again. Wohoo. I m great with kids. Thats something I just realised and recalled. Lolx past few days, small cute kids keep appearing around me when I m out yiling too. And i remember how all my ex-school teachers' children love me. One even say want to marry me =X Oh well yah I m a great man who never quarrel and always give in, high tolerance even though scary when agitated. 4ever love is in my dictionary too but somehow it dun come. love to shower wife with surprises. Opps advertising myself too much! back to chalet.
haha zee children keep coming to me wohoo! but i took good care of them as if they are mine . One part is funny coz when i turn my hand, her son will keep turning round and round. like dog =X phew lucky only yiling saw it.

haha after that accompany yiling and mingli play arcade then go up watch heros. after that started playing cards games as more and more people come up the room. soon everyone slept.

Hmm after that went out to walk around with thiha and angyun, quite a distance before coming back, the night lights are so beautiful. the moon is bright and round too! I love it! the breeze and wave sound is so so wonderful too. 3 man together in such a romantic place. -_-

after that back to the room and tries to rest alittle bit. soon 1 by 1 went out. I saw places for 2 on mattress so I went out as well so MY can go back in to sleep. started to chat about religion purposes of life + god with thiha, hash angyun.

tada now come the day 2.the guys started to go out hunt for breakfast, walked to the delifrance, not opened, walk to coffeebean, same thing. after reading up the brochure, we decide to go to subway to eat since it will open at 9.

after that send the guys off since they going to prom, then left aris + angyun + simone + me. we went to play bball lolx. I m as sucky as usual, think i cost them the game coz of my shortness + "stoneness". haha lost but not that badly against some bball team boys i suppose. after that we went to vivocity to shop. Lolx the guys went to the playground around instead to look at kids. got 1 super cute kid playing with water. haha guess angyun, arison + me are father wannabe =X

awww how i wish i m as innocent and cute and carefree like them.

after that went food republic eat le, yiling came and every1 took some photos outside the X'mas tree before catching the movie "Hero" at Golden village. Haha its nice since the main lead have similar character like me! lolx the movie is rather predictable, guessed every part of the clues correctly before it show up =D

sad to say yiling have to go home coz she tired + no shirt. lucky she got on the last train + lrt and reached home safely, dun wanna her to walk home alone.

wohoo went back to play cards before sleeping lolx. now lesser people can sleep betta though.

wohooo next come the day 3, in the morning the girls go suntanning, while the angyun aris + me went to eat breakfast. next we went off to arison house while the girls went for manicure + job interviews. lolx angyun play tonghua with the guitar then i sing . so nice can? =X sad then arison went to meet his mum le, left me and angyun. =( y all guys pangseh sia, nber book their days nicely for chalet de. lolx me and angyun went to marinasquare for bowling + pool, spent 20+ bucks each person. after that meet up the girls to hunt for halal restoran since changing appetite not halal, end up at swensen spent a 30 bucks.

went back to chalet to play cards again, haha was planning not to sleep de, in the end each of use fall asleep 1 by 1, leaving rachel as the last girl standing! congratz!

Next day packed up, went coffeebean , a clown came and make balloon braclet for the girls and balloon swords for the me and angyun. haha kinda of funni to bring the 2 swords back home, attracted weird attention on the mrt.

The End!

Reflection:
1. I m great with kids
2. Peppermint Ice Blended @ CoffeeBeans is the nicest now!
3. I wanna be a great father
4. If people booked you at advance, reserve the dates then, dun pangseh halfway.
5. I need physical activities (canoeing, swimming, etc)
6. many thing is possible with money =D but having companionship is most fun and happy.

Haha wohoo who will finish reading my post, at least i made the effort to do paragraphing unlike my old blog. Password: nothing is impossible with HavoHej
tell me the password and I will give you a surprise =D

* Don't fight the problem, decide it. *

My immortal.

2007-11-26T00:57:00.000+08:00

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

emo-nated

2007-11-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

Dunnoe what have happened. I was very happy yesterday. But today I feel kinda of emo.

Morning woke up quite late, started cleaning the walls of the house. Then I started to game with my friends, was looking forward to training but somehow they are all really bored or emo and we started to play fun map. Somehow i felt emo too. emo can spread huh?

Then no mood to play those fun map and we whole day play against pub, thrashing all lolx. too easy.

zzzz. then after we all break off, I am left alone, emo-nated. I keep thinking about ns, the 4months and stuff. think too much i guess. hmmm then went on youtube to look at things to cheer me up.

okie here is 1, the elmo is me =D

*If life is so fair, why do roses have thorns?*

dota + movie

2007-11-23T04:30:00.000+08:00

wohoo woke up at 1pm todae and dota + fun games until noon b4 going out to watch movie!

Lolx at first decided on cwp but later change to cine =D

Beowulf is a nice movie! new types of movie with animation + real humans. pawn finalfantasy movie!
Should not spoil it =D

haha after that back to drafting/training for competition.
This really inspired me. The world best team of 5.

And our last 2 match of today we managed something close to that =D I am happy!
I can say I m 50% back to match style. Some ppl sponsor our team please =D

lonely trip

2007-11-19T15:33:00.000+08:00

awww last saturday 17th Nov 07, I was bored and wanna go somewhere interesting to me so I started on my trip to the dental clinic for my appointment. asked around for ppl to accompany me but to no avail so I went alone =D
PS: Maybe I miss a few of you guys, paiseh.

after my appointment, I started to take a bus to the location after checking the guides on sbs bus. I got pawned by it badly. I alight near the condo areas, and found bukit timah nature park after walking for dam long + asking for direction. nothing much there, explored the whole of it =(

The Long Road Up to Nature Park.

Omg its a rather sleep slope too but I am strong =D
This sign look funni >.<

A used quarry at the nature park.

Then I move on to my true destination : Bukit Timah Nature Reserve! Wohoo! after walking around I finally found it!

My first Monkey welcoming me at the entrance!

Wohooo! I trek without a wooden stick, relying on my sheer muscles =D and its was rather scary coz my phone died out and I m almost like alone on the trek always.

I must say God is rather kind to me, the sky looks dark like its going to rain heavily but there is only a slight drizzle which I m unaffected under the canopies of trees =D But the sad thing is My phone died out on me after I took the photo above =(

so no more photo of me with my ancestor or should I say my brothers?
Since I am Sun YongFeng a.k.a in the family line of Sun WuKong! Muhahaha.

Haha After that went the 24 hour food chain bought strawberry prata + banana split, yumyum for dinner. What a tiring day alone =D

Looking for companions to Labrador Nature Reserve next =D Let me know if interested =D

*The only abnormality is the incapacity to love.*

I can Cook!

2007-11-19T15:29:00.001+08:00

Wohoo! Today woke up to prepare breakfast for my mum and brother. First there is I made a small hawaii pizza (top right) put inside my microwave and let it do the magic =D

Next I fried the prata with my cooking pan. While preparing the Campbell soup beside. Next I cook the egg and ham too =D

Tada!

Prata with cheese and ham inside =D

Haha anione else have this kind of healthy natural pepper and sea salt grinder like mine family?

The prata combination is up for mix and match =D

Are you hungry?

Chef for hire! =X Lolx I m trained as a househusband! All household chores is no problem to me!
Wonder who will despise me =D.

Time to study! ciaox!

" Mother Nature is not sweet."

2007-11-16T18:23:00.000+08:00

Hiass Chem paper 1 is bad for me I guess.

Nvm left 1 more physics paper. Gambatte =D

Wohooo my Jc life pass like so fast, now its like ending soon le.

Kinda of start to feel lost and confused. >.< Something is stirring up inside me, I can feel it, but I am afraid of the consequences if i follow my heart.

*Ponders*

Hmm aniwae I will go back to my usual tradition of ending with a nice quote =D

*Freedom lies in being bold.*

drawahouse.com

2007-11-14T22:40:00.000+08:00

Wohoo I m back!

My exams are all ending finally. Did something interesting xD
My house consist of a greenhouse, and alot of glass wall for my house, there is also a jazz tub
and a swimming pool.
And my roof is made of glass as well to view the stars when I sleep. There is also a telescope on the far right to view the wonderful sky =D

If you want to do it , click here=D

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. We also see that you are sensuous, sexual, and privately passionate. You don't think much about yourself.

*If we don't end war, war will end us.*

furious angry..

2007-02-12T21:51:00.000+08:00

so happy with my deardear wor, heex should not post abt our outing lest ppl envy =X

so srry raihan, some copyMEOW took our songs...

cant fulfill ur lastwish to keep it within us only..

curse dem from heaven will ya?

r.i.p my beloved friend..

some ppl are just overboard le..there no xinfu in forcing..

Shemhemforash!

terence and raihan >.<

2007-02-02T18:51:00.000+08:00

haha todae woke up at 10, prepare until 11 then go doby god each suki sushi, student buffet wor,
after ++ its around 19dollar plus, but hor its buffet is good, coz free flow of drinks and oso all plates dat is below 4.90, so basically nearly everything wor! heex but hor I eat below my last time de limit, guess my stomach grew smaller =X

heex after dat went home and wait for dear =X

o.O look lyke alot ppl lyke those songs wor >.<

Dear raihan, although eu in heaven now, i just want to let eu noe, i miss the time we been together and the time where we chose our tennis racket >.<

^^ wheeeee tml is sat!

wohoohohohoh, stairway to heaven wor =X

its' you!

2007-02-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

i may nurt sing s well s clay or ruben
i may nurt b de cutest guy
i may nurt look lyke leonardo dicaprio
but i do noe 1 thing ..

it's eu who make muiee stronger
i nid eu more than ever
eu're the reason why i m singing for eu
it's eu who create the wonders
in all my days of struggles
it's ur love that surrounds muiee whole world

sometimes i cry when im lonely
when it all just seems so real
but there's one thing that i can't deny
is ur love that's in muiee life

^^ deardear *smoochies*

wo ai ni! wheee sat is coming hohohoh! words to actions! =X

ur laogong >.<

deardear poem to mi ^^

2007-01-31T21:10:00.000+08:00

280107 , our love story started
the time is 6.29pm

its where we start

walking on a road

call FATE

its alort like love
memories began .
once couples forever couples .

i felt the heartbeat beatinqq in ur chest

i feel the gentle clutch of your hand in mine

and i cant breathe , i really cant .

my heart stops beating

in a flutter of happiness

when ur skin touches mine ,

i can hear u breathing in my ear

and i cant breathe too

your smile is so divine

that it melts my soul .

when i see it crawl over ur face

it can tell a thousand stories

your eyes sparkle

and mine water at sight

i think over and over

MINE , ur handsome to me .

only you . no other guys .

i promise you .

and your touch could make me cry

i dunnoe why

you could crush me with just one glance .

cos i love you .

i really do .

it never ends

280107 NEVER END -cries-

WO AI NI =D My princess! she did this even though she is sick >.<>

280107 6.49 mamato's

2007-01-29T20:28:00.000+08:00

Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to girl I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to girl I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me too
Until the end of time
From the day I met you
I know we've be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and i wanna have kids with you
Thinking never compare to feel enough to kisses
I can say i'm truly happy to the same
You've made me think I'll die and live my life hesitate
There's never been no doubt in my mind
That i'll regret ever having you by my side
But if the day come that i'll have to let you go
I think that something I should probadly let you know
With everything that i spent with you
Then i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all

I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

a promise, deardear muackie!

X Country

2007-01-24T17:31:00.000+08:00

o.O same lyke last year except its dam muddy, it's funny to see ppl jumping here and there to avoid the mud lolx.

I wonder what will happen if ppl slip and face first into the mud =X

haha o.O i got the badge wor! this time nicer than last time!

but hor this time i folo thiha plan lolx =X

haha okie quite tired >.<

buaix dats all!

Tired

2007-01-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

o.O todae sianzo day >.< chance ="P" blank ="X">.< lolx got 1 super cute =X

hope i dance well during the performance and that nothing goes wrong.

haha had fun even though i sprained my left thumb, went mac eat jiu go home le =D

Tml Pe =( cant do pull up le ..

argh econs hw now zZzZ ciaox!

SOFT @ DXO

2007-01-21T17:34:00.000+08:00

20th

o.O lolx morning wait for cutie call but it nber came, so do the newspaper articles for GP, then one game of Dota, and meet out with my seconadry school friends @ around 6.20

haha went cityhall then we try to find a place to eat, walk round and round in circles b4 deciding to eat in a chinese restaurant. =D Yum yum! crispy peking duck, crispy garlic ribs and sausage omelette!

omg so dam good =D

haha after that, find deep in burger king, then later go straight to esplanade there find the the tix seller >.< mummies ="X">.< together ="D">.<

should not go DXO again!

free and easy now huh! stressfree =P

is this life?

2007-01-18T20:21:00.000+08:00

well todae, in school, after watching a nice video during assembly which is one of the effort of one of my ex teacher, Mr Ng S.K , i actually have tears screaming to come out of me...

it is about a guy being sort of psyched and counselled out of the depression that he is experiencing after a failed 3 year relationship with a girl. what the coach say is really true, all is not lose from the relationship...instead things are gained, experiences and happiness which are both priceless.

well I can say it should be true to mi...

sec 3 i lose a girl who cheated on mi with another guy
jc1 i lose a girl who cheated on mi with another guy too.

the first failed relationship is lyke, oh well, I run around the neighbour hood in tears every night for at least a month? foolish mi...while this cause my personality to change from super outgoing, talkative, confident guy to a sadist, quiet, weird, shy guy, making me not as popular from sec 3 onwards, even during my jc1?

zzzzz I m scared of getting hurt, i hated girls to some extend, i even define them as money leeching bitches in my dictionary..

well then jc1 i tried another 1, zzzz same things happen...but this time i cried during the holidays until this year jan...and causing mi to even close up mre and very sensitive, distancing away from my friends as well...girl > friends > family...

and this two barricade actually prevent mi from getting my actual O lvl result and jc1 result...I didnt study for o lvl and jc1 much...no hw done...

Screw it all, I m letting those emotion getting a hold on me! wasting my time...argh time to snap out of it!!

Roar!!

I should have gain instead of losing from the failed love...

how i wish i can hug some1 and cry it away now, then start afresh, no 1 should walk over me, i should love every1 and lastly no relying on girls too much...

but haisss i have too much things that cannot be said...so i appeared to be a evil ppl, always thinking of bad things...haizz why am i in this family? everyday, my family dun tok dun luff, all not trusting each other..

I just wish for a hug a kiss a assurance from ani1 >.<

haisss =(

mamato make mye day! =D

2007-01-12T18:05:00.000+08:00

Dear cutie ,
no matter what im still right here as a friend
no matter what ur friends sae
just ignore it
cos friends dun betray
a true friend doesnt betray , doesnt backstabb
cutie , cheerup .
u shant let the hurtful things go on
u shld think of those happy moments
cutie , no matter where u are on earth
i will be here , right here
beside u ,
playing a part as a cutie
FRIENDS FOREVER =]
6.02 pm .

So cute of she wor >.< wheeeeeee

EMO T.T

2007-01-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

We spend our lives running from the pain,
All playing the pawn in this sick and cruel game,
I spend my days sitting in the dark,
Or sitting in the sunshine all alone in the park,
I'm trapped in the sun inside a shoebox,
Where it is dark and hot,
Feeling like long lost photograph that somebody forgot,
Shut inside a shoebox and lost in a garage,
Seeing freedom in the distance,
But it is just a mirage,
Hearing my old friends walk by just outside this shoebox wall,
Just walking right on by,
Like I'm not there at all,
I will probably die here,
Sad and all alone,
I could've been the greatest thing the world had seen,
And no one would've known...

zzz lonely!

<3

2006-12-03T14:14:00.000+08:00

heex sleeping with xiaocutie sweetie in my arms is great =X

eu are so sweet singing songs and patpating me >.<

heex yay ur pasta so nice wor >.< lunch now so full le =X

weee cant wait for eu to cook curry rice for dinner <3<3>.<

lalalalalalalalalalal

how i wish eu were her >.<

blessing in disguise =P

2006-11-30T04:16:00.000+08:00

heeex ytd wed hor, I came out of my bedroom after a 2hr+ prayer >.<

Then play cs:source zombie map!

haha then play until 4, leave house, reach my workplace at 5+.

Yay I reach le, was very happy, planning to collect my pay =P

then when i was signing, everything went wrong >.<
I cant find my name at the 6pm dinner paper and I write my name down at the bottom of it, then tell the auntie clerk(joanne). Then she say it cant be, then she check and check >.<>.<

So this mean I am late le..Then I dunnoe wat to do, so I called arison and he tell mi I can either walk in for the 6pm or go my slot..In the end i make a decision to go my slot.

Haha then I tell the manager that I am late becoz the clerk mess up my timeslot, so shineman(albert) say its alrite and glad that I am honest and apologised. =P
Heex next another blessing came, my side is only a buffet de prom! mean I oni need to pour drinks and clear plate! Yay! nehneh ni popo! arison need to do dinner and dine , then need to carry course and serve de =P poor backached arison =P

Lolx okie then hor I work work work lor, happily =P Then a group of lyke 3 classy beautiful girls approach mi >.<>.< then I go ask two manager, one manager say should accept to entertain the guest, the other who is bigger in rank say i should not. haha so I go tell the disppointed girls cannot =P

haha then when its ending and every1 is walking out, they just suddenly hook their arm with my arms at both side, and say please >.< then they look around say no manager, dun worry and faster take le =P

Lolx phew >.<>.<

Lolx okie then after that OT is rubbish, one indian guy by the name of thamil >.<>.<>.<>.< haha then 1.30am we free le. so just go around looking for food and drinks to enjoy =P

haha then 2am go down canteen and start eating, meet up with arison and other guys then eat and talk =P

heex take the 2.45am taxi bus home, reach home at 3.40am!

haha oh yah, just remembered something. Lolx ytd 1 girl (dunnoe china or local) got terminated at my workplace according to my colleague due to a dam funni reason. As food server, when serving the first course, we will usually say,"sir and mdm, enjoy your first course or first dish. " then this girl hor, got say this lah, but she extra, during the last course she said, "Please ENJOY YOUR LAST MEAL!"

LOlx I luff until pengz >.<

Okie Haha not planning to sleep with arison =P now drinking my connoction of redbull+h2o+other energy drink >.<

haha yay 7am go play badminton le =P then basketball too

I should end this entry =P

wow >.<

2006-11-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

haha from todae onwards , I should update my blog when I am not working >.<

On saturday service.
The whole church pray, and when everyone was praying, I can feel such a incredible force, rushing into my head, as if its going to explode =X it was so painful that I nearly faint, but I know I have to take it all, I need it in order to do great things as ...
Haha next thing i know, i went home and got K.O in bed.

Okie todae I have a wonderful meal that recharge my energy, and above are the pic tada!

Heex yay =P

Okie time to rest =X buaix all

GRANDMA'S HANDS

2006-11-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

This is good; I'll never look at my hands the same!

Grandma, some ninety plus years, sat feebly on the patio bench. She
didn't move, just sat with her head down staring at her hands. When I
sat down beside her she didn't acknowledge my presence and the longer I
sat I wondered if she was OK.

Finally, not really wanting to disturb her but wanting to check on her
at the same time, I asked her if she was OK. She raised her head and
looked at me and smiled. "Yes, I'm fine, thank you for asking," she
said in a clear voice strong.

"I didn't mean to disturb you, grandma, but you were just sitting here
staring at your hands and I wanted to make sure you were OK," I
explained to her.

"Have you ever looked at your hands," she asked. "I mean really looked
at your hands?"

I slowly opened my hands and stared down at them. I turned them over,
palms up and then palms down. No, I guess I had never really looked at
my hands as I tried to figure out the point she was making.

Grandma smiled and related this story:
"Stop and think for a moment about the hands you have, how they have
served you well throughout your years. These hands, though wrinkled,
shriveled and weak have been the tools I have used all my life to reach
out and grab and embrace life.

"They braced and caught my fall when as a toddler I crashed upon the
floor. They put food in my mouth and clothes on my back. As a child my
mother taught me to fold them in prayer. They tied my shoes and pulled
on my boots. They held my husband and wiped my tears when he went off to
war.

"They have been dirty, scraped and raw, swollen and bent. They were
uneasy and clumsy when I tried to hold my newborn son. Decorated with my
wedding band they showed the world that I was married and loved someone
special. They wrote my letters to him and trembled and shook when I
buried my parents and spouse.

"They have held my children and grandchildren, consoled neighbors, and
shook in fists of anger when I didn't understand.

"They have covered my face, combed my hair, and washed and cleansed the
rest of my body. They have been sticky and wet, bent and broken, dried
and raw. And to this day when not much of anything else of me works real
well these hands hold me up, lay me down, and again continue to fold in
prayer.

"These hands are the mark of where I've been and the ruggedness of life.
But more importantly it will be these hands that God will reach out and
take when he leads me home. And with my hands He will lift me to His
side and there I will use these hands to touch the face of Christ."

I will never look at my hands the same again. But I remember God reached
out and took my grandma's hands and led her home.

When my hands are hurt or sore or when I stroke the face of my children
and husband I think of grandma. I know she has been stroked and caressed
and held by the hands of God.

I, too, want to touch the face of God and feel His hands upon my face.

When you receive this, say a prayer for the person who sent it to you
and watch God's answer to prayer work in your life. Let's continue
praying for one another.

Passing this on to anyone you consider a friend will bless you both.
Passing this on to one not yet considered a friend is something Christ
would do.

-- Author Unknown

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

2006-11-12T23:08:00.000+08:00

*To my married and unmarried friends:

This is a very touching story, please read it slowly, I've read it more than
twice....

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in
front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the
car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and
shy.. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I
went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were
steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil
servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same
time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more
likely to be affected by unpredictable changes. Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from
behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was
the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words
suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said,
Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of
this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I
couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.?
I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because
I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of
divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something
impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how
mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.
I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched
TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.
This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what
will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently
she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't
imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the
staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something
while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled
at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live
together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to
tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in
her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her
know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic
calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry..
She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted
to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a
satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that
she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced
at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who
had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But
I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to
see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce
which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her
writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found
she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me,
but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the
month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was
simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she
didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you
still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This
question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded
and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have
a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we
divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the
bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to
end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and
thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the
result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel
uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was
explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I
carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped
behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense
of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked
over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly,
Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat
upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove
to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my
chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I
realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long
time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on
her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being
demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still
an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The
visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where
she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded.
The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about
this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me
stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was
picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few
but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have
grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was
thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I
knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense
of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To
him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of
his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I
turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last
minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting
room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I
held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our
son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your
arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life
lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any
delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the
door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no
fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can
only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably
because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't
love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the
home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.
So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the
door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife
which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I
smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

THE END >.<

Heeex deardear although I won't cheat on you and have a "Dew", I will carry you out every morning until we are old >.<

f*cken bitch and bastard

2006-11-11T18:37:00.000+08:00

todae I am actually veri happy de >.<

Then hor, I saw my ex's personal message in msn that she is sad...

So I have nothing to do so I go console her and got scold instead?

WTF!

And somemore its about the guy who she two timed me with?

CheesePie...

I destroy my own day de mood...

You Xin Mei Hao Bao (Dunnoe spell correctly anot)

Nvm..I should booze away in my friend birthday party later...Okie I going out le..Buaix

Deardear wo mish euuu alorts >.< sms me wor =P

dead >.<

2006-11-10T10:19:00.000+08:00

lolx blog so dead >.< chronicles =X "To love abundantly is to live abundantly, and to love forever is to live forever."

buaix!

vision, roller blading, fighting

2006-07-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

wahaha todae service is really good! lots of praise and worship..hmm the sermon todae is very good todae!

wahhahaha we must have a vision to have a future,
We have to withhold and press on to the vision..
if not we will make foolish choices and exchange things for things dat are not worth it..

the easier way is always not the better way, its the way of satan..he lured u into taking shortcuts in life, and destroying u in the end..

in order to be successful, we have to endure the path of the cross, and suffer + wait b4 we really get successful...dats the way of the god, its just lyke the word bless..we are blessed by god, mean we are empowered by god to get the things, not given..being given the things we want is lyke the shortcut, the way of satan

So b patient and not make foolish choices :D

wahaha then after the service, went east coast park play with my cellies ! weeeee i first time rollerblade! wahaha yay! I think I mastered it, at least the basic( although i keep falling =X wahaha)..hmm after dat go yoshinova eat then went home!

Wahahaha this week spend lyke 130+ bux liao..89.90 on tennis racket...then the rest on food, and todae's rollerblades! wahahha die liao, my last 10+ bux will be finish tml! >.<

wah todae know a girl from my school who is in national tkd team sia, make mi recall of the good times and pawnage time i have in tkd...but something really bad happened which make mi dun want to fight animre le....feeling sad for the poor boy family...hiazz so srry...

hmmm okie all fighters out there...if u see my blog....plz dun keep aiming at the person heart area...his heart might just stop... :(

okie i should turn in now! tml dota time..

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Back to Light For All! The Lord Accept All! Hallelujah!

2006-06-26T00:12:00.000+08:00

Wahaha I was reading a few magazine and I spotted this issue about him so I think it will be good if I share it with all of you..Wahaha writing my testimonial soon :D

The Lord is Omnipotent!
The Lord is All-Knowing!
The Lord is Everywhere!

really glad to see those miracles done by The Lord! Weeee I feel so high!
Be sure to read the testimonial on http://www.headtochrist.com/
Wahaha I cried!

Brian Head Welch ( Guitarlist for Korn Previously) Now Converted!

A piece of my story
When i was 10 years old I used to sit in my room and listen to ozzy and dream about being a rock star. When I was 24 years old that exact dream started to come true. As the success poured in something deep inside of me poured out. The dream coming true didn't satisfy me. It seemed like the more records that I sold the unhappier I became. I hid my unhappiness extremely well. The only time that I had fun was when I was drunk or high on drugs but as we all know the party can't last forever. I covered up my depression for so many years that finally I couldn't find anything to cover it up with anymore. Everyone that really knew me could see how depressed I was. A year ago I had 2 choices placed in front of me. I had to choose between life or death. I didn't want to go to church. I hated church people but I thought if there really was a god he must be in the church building so I went looking for him. The first time that I went to church I was up for 3 days but I didn't care because I was desperate. I felt like I was going insane but when I got to church and saw all the people with their eyes shut and their hands in the air shouting at nothing, i was like "these people are the crazy ones". But then I started to wonder.....was god real? It tripped me out that all the people were acting like fools and didn't care what anyone thought. It was so backwards to me because I made my living worrying about what people thought of me so much and I always tried to impress the crowd at any cost. There were so many people worshiping god that i started to realize they must have some kind of proof that he is alive. Why else would they all be here? Then the pastor came out and he was talking as if god was alive and involved in his everyday life. he said that god wanted to be involved in everyones life. I thought to myself "how can that be? he says there's only one god and there are billions of people on earth. If there is a god, how can that one god have time to care about and be involved with billions of people's lives? Either these guys are totally insane or i've been blind my hole life to what's really going on." Anyway, I decided to accept christ as my lord and savior that day and I went home to learn for myself if god was real. When I got home I went into my closet and got high and started talking to god. I asked him to make me not want to get high or drunk anymore. It was like my body wanted to get high all the time but inside it wasn't satisfying me anymore. Within about a month I had no desire to take a pill, drink a beer, snort a line, ect. I got high a few times during that month but I kept talking to god telling him that I was getting better but I still needed that extra power to stop for good. I finally got that power and A life time of emptiness, addiction, and depression was gone in 30 days. God showed me that he is very real and alive. He didn't reveal himself to me until i took that step towards him. I couldn't see him until I cried out to him. It's been almost a year since all that happened. I have since been filled with the holy ghost and I am so close with god that I look forward to dying. but I have a lot of work to do here on earth first. I want to help the younger generation see god the way I see him. God is not anything like I thought he was. The bible is not a book of rules. It's a book of promises and truth. Everything in that book is true. When you ask christ into your heart, you don't have to obey him......you just want to. You see, if your life seems worthless and your hurting inside it means that god is calling you. Pain leads us into the arms of the living god. Everything in life has to do with entering and exiting. Make a choice today to exit pain and enter peace.

If you want to see for yourself once and for all if what i'm saying is true, all you have to do is invite christ into your life. Just say JESUS CHRIST, PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR MY SINS AND BE MY LORD AND SAVIOR. SEND YOUR HOLY SPIRIT TO COME INTO MY HEART AND CHANGE ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT. THANK YOU......A MEN

Lord, I want to ask you for a special favor. Please reveal yourself to the people that come to my site and confess you as their lord and savior in a very special and intimate way as you did for me. Begin to speak the mysteries of their divine plan into the spirit that you placed inside of them. Show them how much you love them and how real you are. Show them that they will live forever. In your loyal name.....a men.

Now it's up to you. Knock on the door and god will open it. Seek him and you will find him. Ask him for legitimate things and they will be given to you. Read the promises that are in his word the bible. Talk to him like you talk to someone you love. Get together and talk with people that believe in christ. You will start to see the invisible and do the impossible. You will look at life in a hole new different way.

Adapted from http://www.headtochrist.com/

Marathon

2006-05-13T00:24:00.000+08:00

Lolx Friday Watched MI3 and Poseidon!

Hmm MI3 Super NICE! A MUST WATCH!

It make me have second thoughts about getting a wife =X

Hope I still haven get into the Adult Training Academy.....

Hmm Poseidon average bah..Typical Titanic Movie =)

Haha Yay Today Got Class Outing! Think I go Sleep now le!

Ciaox Au Revoir!

Happy Birthday!

2006-05-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

Sweet Seventeens are harbingers of grace,
Intimations of a childhood's end,
Xxx's on the envelope of time.
This invitation I to you extend,
Easy in the rush of time and place,
Expecting in the moment's silver chime
No more than just a glimpse of life to
come..

Happy Birthday Terence Sng Yong Hong/ Wyatt Natas Dlihc!

Haha so I just received my third, fourth and fifth birthday present from friends! Kinda of touched!

Lolx since Sec1 I Only received 1 bracelet and 1 necklace from girls..

Hehe so Happy!

Cant Wait to Upload my (Smashed with Cake) Picture :D

Thx Every1 For Everything!

I LOVE YOU!

Haha Okie Back to Gp Hw! Ciaox!

Sianzation =>

2006-04-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

Hiazz So Sianz... Finally got a Break!

From 10th Of april until now, I been so busy...Weekends got camp somemre...So its lyke a 2 Long weeks of work!

Dam tiring lor...everyday somemre sleep so late due to the work needed to be done..then easy lectures oso sleep lolx =X..

Glad dat I can finally take a breather!

Actually the main things dat worry me the most and cause me to be so tired is the PI.
Hope every1 can get over it soon! Jiayou!

Todae actually got watch movie somemre de... then alot ppl now then collect O lvl result slip..so cancelled leh..lolx now so sianz...reach home early but still need to perfect the dam PI...

Okie enulf said! looking forward to next week's friday =D

Back To Pi-Ing!

*ALL Ppl Doing PI, Especially 0612C de, Pm Me In MSN! Got PI stuff from Teacher to pass on To You All!*

Sad Humans

2006-04-18T22:10:00.000+08:00

Most people don't want to fight for what they believe in. It's too
hard, and they're conditioned to losing. It's been beaten into
them that there is no hope of winning, so they might as well give up.

I don't believe that.

I believe in winning, and my goal in my writings is to remind guys
guys like these what kind of power they still have. That it IS
possible to win.

That Failure not only isn't an option, it doesn't exist at all.

There are certain things in this world that we see as real, but
don't really exist. For instance, thoughts. Thoughts don't really
exist. We can't hold them in our hands and play with them.
Feelings are the same way, as are abstract concepts like "right and
wrong" or "good and evil." None of this stuff is solid, or
tangible. It's all created in your mind.

Failure is the same thing.

When you fail, you percieve the outcome of an action as something
different than what you desired, and the feeling that is evoked
from that outcome is one of pain and loss. When these feelings of
pain and loss cause you give up ever trying to get that desired
outcome again, that is what's called "failure."

There's a finality to the word "failure." As if, when it happens,
that's it. Game over. Do not pass GO, do not collect $200. You
have no hope of achieving what you set out to do.

But the thing is, you can ALWAYS achieve what you set out to do.
Maybe not right away, but later on.

The key to success is PERSERVERENCE. As long as that is in place,
failure does not exist, merely setbacks.

If an army gave up after one defeat, there would be no war. There
would only be "battles" and "skirmishes." You have to look at
achievement of your goals as more than just individual
accomplishments or failures. There's a bigger picture you have to
be aware of.

What's your goal?

In the first century BC, there was a king by the name of
Mithridates Eupator VI, who was considered one of Rome's greatest
enemies. He successfully defended his kingdom against the Romans
for fourty years, in an unending war. Each time Rome declared
victory, Mithridates considered it merely a strategic retreat, and
soon came roaring back with a more powerful army than before.

Every time Mithridates was served with a loss, he did not declare
"Failure" and pack up. He looked at what happened, what he did
wrong, and learned from it, not to make the same mistake again. He
had a goal: To protect his kingdom from the Roman invaders, and
nothing was going to stop him from doing so.

You need to have the mentality of Mithridates.You can't look at little rejections and setbacks as
failures. Rather, they're learning experiences. Failure must
cease to exist in your reality. There is only victory, and
learning experiences.

When you achieve this, you will never lose your will to fight, and
you will have tasted for the first time what it's like to win.

the end.

2006-04-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.

Au Revoir.

阅读感想：“做大人”

2006-04-06T17:32:00.000+08:00

Mingli is a nice girl :D
Mavis is a nice girl :P

是我同意这句话“我们是那么喜欢长大变成大人，同时我们又是多么

害怕变成大人。”从我的角度来看，做个孩子有很多限制。比录，我们每天得在限定的时间回家，也要做很多功课。那时候的我门会想赚钱很容易，我们要埋设么都会有。这种想法能让我们很快的长大。长大后就会发确生活环境是很复杂的。社会也有很多被辟无耻的小人，为了自己的好处便不折手段的。所以如果我要生春，我得比他们奸。所以要到成年人的时候是很压力的。

是的！
有一点互相矛盾。小时后我们向快搞长大，跟深奥的是说我们长大时害怕会像以上所说的成年人。去研究成年人的态度你就会知道我的意识了。

你们是否注意到，“那么”和“多么” are carefully positioned.“那么”显示了我们多么想成长的意欲，而“多么” 则说明了变成大人有许多令人害怕的坏处。这证明了becoming adults 比想成长的意欲来得更可怕。若这两个词倒转来用的话，整个句子的意思就会是相反的。（sounds bit strange thou..)

我认为大人和小孩之间有着很清晰的差异。小孩的责任比较少，却比较多嬉戏。在傻呵呵的当儿也不会感到羞愧。他们活在自己的娱乐界里，且唯一的‘敌人’就是功课。而身为full-fledged　adult，不但身负匆匆重则，在许多领域上，比如爱情，经济等，都会有很大的压力。我们会被困在这vicious cycle of e earth etc etc...

如果要当真正的成年人，我们不因该有优质的想法。要成为成年人，是一件自然的事

Last 1 Dunnoe How to Phrase In Chinese >.<"

English
Yes I agree to the sentence “我们是那么喜欢长大变成大人，同时我们又是多么害怕变成大人。”Because its really true judging from my point of view.When we are young, we got so much restrictions.For example, we have to do homework and go home in time.We also keep thinking that money come easy and thus that if we are adults, we can get to buy anything we want.That really make us want to grow up fast. But in reality its not really true.As we become young adult, we get to know about the true adult world.We will have to work regularly just to earn money.We also have to experience a even tenser rat race which have alot more backstabbing, despicable people. Its either we top the race and become rich, or just barely survive in the race, working just to survive, or even worst, tumbling and falling in the race, entering a temporary poverty.Its already a stressful period entering the transition of young adulthood, thus we are scare of becoming adult.

And Yesh! It quite contradicting and ironic at first sight. We want to grow up fast but at the same time,we are also afraid of growing up.But if we want to write it more detailed , It will be "We want to grow up fast in our own ways but we are afraid to become what people describe adults to be" It a sad truth but if you examine the present humans closely, you will know what I am refering to.

And if you noticed,the "那么" and the “多么” are also carefully positioned. The "那么" shows how we wish to become adults, while the “多么” shows that there are alot of bad points becoming adults which we are afraid of. So it shows that we are more afraid of becoming adults then wanting to become adults. If the 2 phrase are exchanged, the meaning will be directly the opposite.

So I think there really a clear cut on the differences between adults and children.Being a children, we have lesser responsibilities, more fun, and can be silly without feeling much shame.We are also in our own fun mini world where the homework is our only enemies :D
While being a full-fledged adult, we will have alot of responsibilities, lesser fun and be stressed up on alot of areas, be it love,economic and etc.We will be trapped in the vicious cycle of the earth where we have alot of different enemies.

And in order to become full-fledged adult, we have to let go of our naive thoughts, and the rest will come naturally eventually. You cannot really choose when to enter adulthood, its a natural mechanism which activates unpredictablty in our bodies.

Summing up, I should talk about me. I do not really have that thinking before at all. I am not really afraid of entering adulthood at all. In fact, I am really happy to enter it. Although its sort of "Bad", I like it because life become more challenging, more interesting at this point. Last time, I felt that there are no meaning in living in this world. Its so boring and meaningless to follow the same routine to school everyday. And I have been thinking of what is our life worth? In the world population, you are just 0.0000000001% of it. If you die, who will acknowledge and know of your death? Counting your relatives it will be close to only 0.000000001% which is insignificant. We are just a small part of the world. Death come and people move on with lives as usual. You will not be remembered. But now, once I enter Junior College life, I feel alive and ready to rock again. My brain is being worked again! I love challenges. So I love growing up.

Time to make a difference and be remembered!

Remember this quote and follow your heart:
"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail."

research

2006-04-06T01:26:00.000+08:00

hehe the more I went into my PW research, the more engrossed I get...Even though I completed my assignment.. I cannot stop!

Now SIANZ...Mum ask me to stop...

I have so much things in my mind...

HAHA I TRY TO SHOULD SLEEP NOW...!

Weet...I been feeling weird lately...I cant describe the feelings...But its nice and painful at times...

I do not really know what I should do...Hate mind games...

Au Revoir

周记

2006-03-31T21:11:00.000+08:00

这个礼拜，没设么特别的事发生。但我也想说我很累。有三个月的功课要在短期里读完。好惨阿！星期三还要去 cross country

每天，当我一到家，我会先洗个澡，然后才开始读书。这几天，不知道为什么，我没心情玩电脑游戏。但我会读书到凌晨十二点才进入睡梦中。真的很累，何况星期三还有cross country。

我好喜欢星期三，因为我当天认识到我的同学。我们一起出去，虽然有几个人没去，但我很感激那些一起出去的同学。

今天我去科学馆for “Meet The Scientist Section”。这是由A*Star Corporation 所举办的.由于我要参加的课外活动是Science Enterprise Club,所以必许参于这次的活动.”

两个课，One on Na science， One on Intergrated Circuit。很有趣,但我累得差点睡觉，然后我在科学馆里边走边参观。当我要回家时，突然下起大雨,害我得自己卖挡捞，害我得自己一个人吃卖挡捞，才能会家。

在我在吃的时候, 三个初级学院的可爱女生来向我拿电话号码,我却说我已经有女朋友了. 他们就走掉了。要知道我为设么这样吗? 因为大多数的女生who initiated this kind of things不是认真的。
Too many setbacks had make me realise this...

我不敢相信我会骗他们, 可是我Know我只是在等待一个之得我爱的人。

Haha if dun understand, read the english de better...its mre detailed. :D

English's
For this week, nothing much really happened. But I must say that I m very tired for this week due to the catching up of my 1st 3 month stuffs and the crosscountry on wed.

Everyday, once I reach home, I take at bath and start studying...Dun really have the mood to touch my games or whatsoever, everyday study until like 12am then sleep...Really tired...Then wednesday still got cross country somemre..

But I am really happy on wednesday as I got to know my classmates better...We got a small CG outing which didnt really went totally successful but I really appreciate those who did turn up...

Haha...Then today I went for the "Meet the Scientist Section" organised by the a*star research thingy at science centre for my cca "Science Enterprise Club"..

2 Lectures, One on Nanoscience, One on Intergrated Circuit..Interesting But I m so tired that I nearly sleep..after the lectures, i tour around the science centre and play the stuffs and exhibits alone..then when I wanted to go home, the rain started to get heavy..so end up having to eat my dinner in the macdonald alone...

Haha then something happened..2-3 cute national jc girls come and sit on my table which actually cater to 6 ppl...then they ask for my number and name..haha then I just tell them I am attached =X and they left my table and leave me alone..

Want to know why I did it? Coz I have learnt from my mistakes..Most of the girls who initiated this kind of things are not serious..Too many setbacks had make me realise this...

Haha what a white lie to tell them that I m attached! But I dun wish for it to be a lie animre..Waiting for my nice decent girl..

tiring day

2006-03-29T18:15:00.000+08:00

haha todae actually planned to meet alan at yewtee mrt station de...then go to macritchie together..haha but I late 5 min then he go leh..he no hp so cannot contact him outside...so srry!

hmm then go there run cross country lor...hmm actually , it is like much less tiring then the 4km in school..hhaha fresh air + scenary!

mayb next time always go there train stamina le..hehe great place...

hmm i complete it b4 30 min but the teacher say badge ran out... :(
didnt noe i can run much betta with my mp3 lolx..haha

after dat my class actually planned to watch movie or wat de, but in the end went mac and eat/chat until very long..haha then benjamin go off le..and we all went the pool up there but cannot play..so we walk a very long, long way to a louya club,wanting to go bowling..but inside got school training stuff...haha we waited so long, but end up only playing the arcade there..simone left first, then followed by Yi-Ling, xinyi, angyun,zuul then rachel,zhiwen,me...arison stayed back to play with another group of innovians..

so on the mrt we chatted alot...but zul lyke feeling extra so he didnt talk..haha nice conversaton..
:D

hehe class starting to bond le! so now i can conclude dat the class dun suck after hearing from them, it the CT dat suck! haha

okie now to my partial fraction le..

au revoir

*hey, you are so cute*

chinese+crosscountry

2006-03-28T22:59:00.001+08:00

sianz...now my stamina totally suck..

I run 5 rounds around the track(400m) alrdy died le.. 2k oni nia

Haha monday ran 5 rounds around the teletubbie hill which is = to 10+ rounds around the track..

Todae ran 6 rounds around the tracks cause got crosscountry tomorrow..

Dam, I should walk for the first half and run for the second half..=X see mood and leg bah...hehe

today i feel somewhat free and light though..haha nothing heavy on me now...

Haha weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

RUN LIKE THE WIND!

Hmm sianz..now I got a chinese assignment which is to write a 500 characters essay abt the begger thingy...sianz need to keep flipping through the chinese dict. le...haha oso got a piece of passage for me to read...any translator? 5 dollars for Explanation and reading! first come first serve!

well for my classmates, if you guys dunnoe, I got d7 for my chinese, barely making it to jc..haha need plenty of help!

oh well I m also thinking of dropping to chinese b due to the unexpected standard of the ao chinese..lao shi, if you are reading this, can i drop to chinese b halfway later? if i cannot make it?

haha aniwae I just finished linking all my class ppl who have mre than one blog!

okie i think i should sleep le...tml will be a fine day :D

au revoir
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I don't know
If I'm the one for you in this life
I can't help
Hearing my voice calling your name
Cuz when I'm
Trying so hard not to look in your eyes
Maybe I
Have fallen in love with you

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food for tots

2006-03-27T22:35:00.000+08:00

hmm after thinking for straight 2 hr...did realise that it was so dam soon...we just know each other for like three weeks only..

dumb lah mi...time is needed!

haha...okie time to put my mind at rest and finish up my chem tutorial..ciaox

au revoir

dirty little secret

2006-03-27T20:41:00.000+08:00

okie...all the thing before my eyes previously are just illusions...sweet and memorable ones I must say...now I have to move on with life...

feeling very emo nowadays...hiazz...<3 is complicated...

wish I have the chance to hold you tight and say I love you again..

kinda of screw up my first date...I took the wrong advices and did the wrong stuffs...still cannot blame them...its my foolishness to follow it...

*let it fade all out with one of the my fave band songs*

:'(

By: All American Rejects

Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
Go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll Keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know

When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll Keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know

The way she feels inside (inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)
These sleeping dogs won't lie (won't lie)
And all I've tried to hide
It’s eating me apart
Trace this life out

I'll Keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret)

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret

Who has to know?
who has to know?

klassie

2006-03-25T15:39:00.000+08:00

Hmm back to english...

Also after thinking about what thiha told me about us going to be sticking with this class for this 2 years .

I realised I have no choice but to try and break into the already formed clique.

Yes I must...

Okie now I should continue on my homework. With you as my motivation.

"dat day was really a pleasant day with you"
"wished for everyday to be lyke dat day"

I miss you.

假期

2006-03-23T20:13:00.000+08:00

大家好！我总已开始写我的网上日记！Yay! Dam! I feel like typing all those crap in english but too bad, I have to keep it to a maximum of 20% of my essay/post! Here I try out my HanYuPinYin again...

Hmm..我们的作业就是要写关于我们在假期时做的事。我就开始了吧！

我第一个月在工厂做工。第二个月在sentosa的delifrance做工。所以在这两个月也学了不少东西。我的英文也进步了。

在那里也认识了很多新朋友。：D

Hmmm..我一个星期的假期没什莫特别。因为我没有去前三个月，所以三天都在初级学元上课(星期二,三，四)……那些课对我来说没有什莫帮助, 根本都是费时间。老师十在冲得太快，我只了解了三分之一。剩下的那几天都是在自己读练那些资料。我多莫希望那些课可以拉长和被教得更慢。现在，我只靠自己了。

星期一时，我跟三个从我的OGL的人出去，两男两女，一起去simlimsquare，然后就去bugismarket,heeren和一个新的购物中心。然后又去cine看datemovie！那套电影很好笑！你们也因该去看！哈哈哈哈！然后去yoshinoya吃，就回家了。我们在一起时，实在太开心了。我对她的好感又加深了。我很肯定她就是我在生命中寻找的那个她……自从我上次那个失败的感情，我就很不喜欢女生。可是她给了我新的希望。

无意中，我又想起我们第一次见面和拥抱时during the orientation period。那时候真的很爽快。=X

我也很喜欢我的OG的人。很想再跟他们一起出去。很想脸他们……

我也爱上了你。

OMG chinese is so dam hard to type！ I spent more then 12 hours on this short entry...Ciaox! Hope its enough..kinda of funny to read my own standard of chinese as well...Lolx...

New Class...

2006-03-22T08:31:00.000+08:00

I want transfer to 0612J! Suay! Get into a class with low pointers...No life...No fun...The Ct Oso a Fucked Face...Hiazzz..

I want you girl..Miss you very much...